Posted on Tuesday 27 May 2008
I’ve had concerns about Hillary’s candidacy for a long time but they have varied in intensity and focus over time. My main initial concern was that I really didn’t want a legacy President but that she was vastly more qualified for the job than just about anyone else and that Obama was interesting but I knew very little about him and would happily have voted for her given the options available.
So I began listening to other candidates and found Edwards the most interesting from a policy perspective and he became my candidate of choice, with Hillary second, primarily because of health care for both but his stands on other issues made him first on the list. Obama was still interesting but, like Krugman, I felt his health care approach was inadequate. Then Edwards dropped out and I began to look more closely at Obama and realized that I not only liked what I saw and heard there were significant differences in how he approached issues that I preferred to Hillary’s approach. But I would still have happily voted for Clinton and remember saying so quite specifically after one of their one-on-one debates. I was impressed by both.
Then it became clear that he was the better campaigner, that he had scanned the landscape and mapped out a much clearer path to the nomination that included the widest range of America, and I really liked that, while she more and more began to resemble an old-line DLC candidate, and I definitely didn’t like that.
But I would still have happily voted for her had she prevailed.
Then came the early Spring and Obama showed amazing strength in the primaries and she showed amazing weakness, both in style and in tactics and he impressed me even more and her shortsightedness began to concern me.
I was still quite willing to vote for her however, had she prevailed but I was now taking a very close look at Obama.
Then the accusations of gender bias started coming out of the Clinton camp and not without justification in a certain sense because the more out-there Obama supporters sometimes exhibited such behavior and it was easy to cherry-pick that to focus on, but Obama didn’t nor did his close campaign people. But that’s politics and to be expected, just as the subtle playing of the race card by Clinton surrogates was to be expected (the First Surrogate was a huge disappointment in that regard) but she didn’t do that and I wrote it off as typical politics.
Then she began the “he’s not a Muslim, as far as I know” crap, that’s not a surrogate speaking, that’s her saying that. But Obama was nothing but gracious in his response (while surrogates played the game surrogates played, I generally don’t blame the candidate that much for over-the-top supporters, some but not that much, on either side). And then she made the absurd Bosnia statements, not once but many times and then claimed “fatigue” at the very time she was also putting out an ad stating that she’d be the best one to respond correctly to the 3 a.m phone call, rather a bit of cognitive dissonance there, and then she made the “white Americans” statement which was truly bizarre and her campaign began to work that theme rather strongly while ignoring the reality that Obama has done quite well indeed in very white states, then they started pushing hard at the elitist argument (which I’ve always hated) and it became not just occasional surrogates talking but an actual campaign tactic which she herself echoed and it became much harder to think kindly of her as a candidate.
But I still would have voted for her if it came to that.
Then she mentioned assassination (and it matters not what she “actually meant”, she said it and it was bad judgment to do so and no, I don’t think she was hoping for assassination) and then responded badly to being called on it and she lost me completely, especially as she continued to fail to thrive politically and began rewriting history and playing “if” games with numbers and whining about “counting every vote” because to disenfranchise voters is unDemocratic while she and her campaign continually sought to demean voters like me who live in caucus states by implying that we aren’t really representative of our states (and believe me anyone who actually attended an overcrowded caucus here knew better) and the dissonance of her campaign began to really bother me.
And she lost my vote and because I live in a state that is so blue it blends in with the surrounding ocean I actually may not vote at all in the unlikely chance that she becomes the candidate.
But she won’t, because she’s lost and she seems determined to bring down the Democratic Party along with her candidacy because if she can’t have it than no one can and I’ve had quite enough of that attitude for the last 8 years.
And it doesn’t have a goddamned thing to do with sexism, nor does most of the opposition to her that I’ve seen from thoughtful liberals and progressives (the majority).
There are still things that concern me about Obama’s policies, on health care for sure, but from what I’ve seen his campaign has been the one behaving the most honorably and with the most concern for the nation while hers has appeared deeply ego driven (notwithstanding that it takes a big ego to run for that office at all).
I rather like a quote I saw recently “when I go into the voting booth and pull the lever for Obama I still cry out Edwards’ name” and that is still the case with me but I will be extremely happy to be able to vote for Obama because he’s lightyears better than anyone else out there now, sadly including Hillary.
I have also asked, as have others, time and again for some reasons why those in here who support her do so and haven’t gotten much in the way of an answer.
My wife, who is around Hillary’s age, is furious with her, even more so than I am. She is disappointed precisely because she saw Hillary as a great candidate to be the first woman President and feels truly let down by what is happening. All the complaints listed about the Obama campaign in this article in Britain’s New Statesman are the very things that the Clintons say are necessary in terms of tactics to “season” Obama as a candidate (for the future) when it comes from their side. Either the behavior is acceptable or it isn’t and my wife and I come down on the “it isn’t acceptable” from either camp but the level of such behavior from the Clinton side is just becoming too much to bear.

